Even with my family and friends all around me on this great day of mine. I wana take a moment to shout out the greatest inspiration in my life, my mother: Caroline Mendoza. Even though she suddenly died- her legend/story will live on forever; a story of unconditional love and a greatest respect she had towards people, no matter what the cost. Blogging as her son, I will tell you my experience with this delicate soul of hers, and explain goodness from the inside out. On this day, I was born anew, with a loving father and mother always by my side, along with 2 brothers and 1 sister. Both Caroline and John welcomed me to their family with open arms- a love so tender that not even the devil himself could break our bond. We always loved our mother through the thick and thin- between us we pieced love as if it were a puzzle. I myself always expected to much of her- an expection of her doing more for me as a mother; but I yet didn't know what was going on inside her body. Years of growing up from a toddler, I started to realize that my mom was frequently going to the doctor's office or hospital: concerned, I always asked my father ''why is she going to the hospital all the time?'' His reply was that mom will be fine and not to worry about it. I've always had faith in my mom and how she will be able to pull through: for I had see her do it before. When she would come back home, she would be able to brush it aside, and forget about her injuries, just to comfort us with '' everything's ok.'' ( Caroline suffered from a short term memory loss from the beginning of my birth- but I was to neigheve to realize.) No matter what, she will comfort us even In the worse situations, but, to young to appreciate the life she was providing. Years pass by and I start to realize that my moms really sick- noticing the diabetes she had. Not focused on it enough to open my eyes through the life she gave for the sake of our future- but still loved her. Tragically my mom died and that presence of love had drifted away from me. I stopped living life, and started dropping many bombs by turning to my selfish outlook on the world: thinking that I could do anything I want in society. Once highschool came, I took refugee in Christ by dedicating my life to him, did not succeed by faults. I wanted to learn more about him and suddenly seeked peace. As a sixteen year old boy now; I'm not afraid to say that I am a Christ follower, not afraid what people say about me personally. I seek peace, and try to love everybody uncoditionally under his name. Today, under his name, I follow my mother as she does the exact samething to pursue life in happiness. Nothing makes me more happier then to walk with the lord, and live as best as Caroline Mendoza! <3<3<3

Top 5 people I will love to meet, once in Heaven.

Sitting down- watching the sky's in any weather condition- makes me think of what a special person I am to be alive here on earth- and how our lord and savior gave his very own son for us. looking up at the stars- makes me think of my arrival towards the gates of Heaven- with Jesus Christ offering his hand- to help me up to my internal resting place. The 5th person that I will enjoy meeting is my own gardien angel; thanking him for all he's done for me. The 4th person that I will enjoy meeting is the Virgin Mary; shaking her hand, passionently saying I love her. The 3rd person that I will enjoy meeting is Jesus Christ; curiously asking him why the world came to be, kissing his hand- claiming him as my king. The 2nd person I will enjoy meeting is John the baptise; telling him that he made the right choice by baptizing the greatest person in our lives. The 1st person that I will enjoy meeting is My Mom; running towards her- pleading for forgiveness of the mistakes I've made in past and present times, soaring through the universe with her by my side.

Daily Thinking

I believe that god has given me a gift to look at the world in a different prospective than everyone else. Some people may know that I want to be an Author when I grow up, some of you will find out by reading this blog. Maybe my destiny is to become one? The answer may remain unknown. I believe that I have a possibly greater imagination than everyone else; life for me is like that I'm living in my present or future books of mine-- soon to be born into this world. Don't get me wrong-- I love thinking and writing about my ideas that come to me during the days and the nights-- it gives me hope for the future, that I will soon have a job, also to support, the future family. I just wanted to share/finally let go, this part of my life that I kept in for so many years. Everywhere I go, gives me a good thought of an exposition that my book will take place-- every reflect I do or see: a body motion or a hand motion, gives me an idea of what the protagonist and the antagonist will preform on eachother, (fightingwise). I can tell you many, many more: but it will go on forever and probably bor you to death (lol). Well.. Now you know what goes on through my head 24/7. I don't know about you but, I think this gift is the greatest thing that has ever been givin to me: A writer's prospective.

Run, Run, Run

       Where shall I begin... Two years of being in Cross-Country. I have heard people say that, "this sucks" or, "I hate this sport"- especially friends. But I do not agree; you have to be dedicated, outgoing, and motivated to hang on to this thing in order to survive that specific year. My first year wasn't the '' time of my life'', I struggled, I hurt, and I failed to do what was to be done: but I stuck in there- working hard to achieve my goal- satisfying the coach, myself, and my teammates. My name is Nicholas Mendoza, Sophmore of Chino Hills High School, and I am giving you a resemblance of motivation and courage: messaging the people of the United States that you could do anything you set your mind to.